It is not a surprise for me that all the rain that shall be distributed in a month drops suddenly in one moment at your head. There are moments so still, so muggy, or so stabbing, that you can just lay down in your hiding place. No matter how much you tried, it just would not work out to relieve. You couldn't blow away the hot air or the pain, or whatever it was, like a concrete foundation bounding your body so tight, that you believed it was impossible to change.
But when the time comes there are surprises, changes, and miracles of all sorts. Even though we learn, the common thing is that we easily forget. With hidden treasures in this life it is just the case - the more you hide, the more you forget. So we can unexpectedly rediscover something that was obvious to us at some point, maybe even trivial, nevertheless important.
I went to the Kundalini Yoga last Friday and the teacher said: "I better read this to you". This one is not to forget, so I quote.
It is about inverted anger. The anger you feel but do not express, therefore, after a time, is like a cloud that cumulates right over your head, making it all so stuffy that a thunderstorm will hit.
"When the inverted anger becomes part of the body, the simple effect is that you have absolutely no relationship with your Self... Inferiority complex or superiority complex is a cover-up of inner anger. Manipulation and lying are parts of inner anger. Not being self-sustaining or having a foundation to work it out is inner anger.
On the other hand, anger comes from the place of the Agaan Granthi. It is the area of the heart, it is the blood, it is the circulation, it is the diaphragm, it is the heart pumping. The whole life depends on it. So in the center of the heart is a furnace. Either it can cook for you or it can burn down your house and there is nothing in between. That is the tragedy of it.”
- Yogi Bhajan
If it resonates and you are curious about how to release the inner anger, you can try the yoga exercises. There are also therapeutic workshops that specialize in that matter, I recommend articles by Dorota Hołówka. After that an amazing peace may be with you.
A guru told me that this Moon is very special, positive, and to be used for the realization of dreams. So I wish to you.
Painting dated 25/07/2021.